My talent is, endless perseverance and overwhelming effort.

My talent is, endless perseverance and overwhelming effort. 

I thought that, I had no special talent. But in here SKALA, thanks to good friends I met here, I noticed that my endurance and relentless effort can also be regarded as a gift. 

 

From the very beginning of this bootcamp, I have commuted and studied here from 7:30 AM to 10:00 PM. I also commuted every weekend and even holidays.

 

Maybe, this passion touched some students here. So luckily, I could get some new great freinds. They were all very talented and passionate. 

 

One day, I just throw a simple question to my two friends. "What is my strong advantage comparing to others? I dont't think I have any special gift." and two of them, told me that "Your endless perseverance", "Your overwhelming effort".  It was interesting, because I asked them not in the same place. And even though these two listened my question independantly, they gave me same answer. 

 

 

It was very touching to me. Because I was disappointed that I didn't have any excellent something in me. But after I listened to this, I realized that "Oh, I have a very very big talent inside me. And I have a strong confidence to making and persisting this effort.".

 

In past, I underestimated the effort. I thought because I had no talent, I had to do a lot of effort. 

But by changing this view very little, I became someone who have a brilliant talent. 

-> I realized here that I have to get along with someone who treat me to positive way. 

 

Well.. I think, I slightly forgot what made current me. 

The way I succedded was..

I just tried really *99 hard and pushed my self, even though everybody told me that I could fail. And.. I didn't fail. I succeeded. 

 

So now, I am not afraid of anything. I can do whatever I want. Because I know that I will not stop my effort. As long as this passion is alive, I know that I will be successful no matter what it is. 

 

And I will touch people with my overwhelming effort, giving hope to somebody who is frustrated with their blue situation. No matter how bad your situation is, if you don't forgive, and work really hard, and be friendly to others, you can be successful. 

 

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This is kinda personal story, so I hesistated that is it okay to write here(in this public space), but I think this was kinda meaningful experience to me, so I write it honestly. 

 

Actually, on May, this year, I broke up with my boy friend. I had met him over 2years and 7months. And he was my first love. 

 

I think, I really loved him, with my whole heart. I prioritized him more than myself. But he said me good bye. 

I felt I was betrayed. And I was so upset, sad, frustrated, recent.. yah, I had to go through very hard time. 

 

But after broke up, I could find myself again. I noticed that I pretended and acted for him, in order to be loved to him. And it just totally destroyed me. I loosed myself. The endless passion was regarded as uneffective thing to him, so I changed myself. I believed the word he said was all true, and I was wrong. So I depended on him too much. I think it was the start of the disaster. (I feel sorry about this to him.)

 

From now on, I will not change my self in purpose to be loved to somebody else. I will not prioritize anyone than me. I will live as me, myself.

 

I appreciate to my ex. Because of this break up, I could find genuine me and define me newly. I could learn what's the most important value in my life(the endless and overwhelming effort). 

 

Next time, I will meet someone who makes me feel I am enough, and I have nothing to change. I will meet someone who love me from the bottom of the heart.(vise versa) someone who let me love myself. 

 

Now, I'm finally ready to let him go completely even from the deepest corners of my heart. (Concidentally, today marks exactly 3 years since the day we first started dating)

 

Good bye, I hope you have a good life with somebody else with somewhere.